welcome to 2024!

i know anyone who has ever, despite the amount of time they have drawn breath on this blue planet, had a self awareness has wondered, what if…

i don’t really delve into the what if’s too much anymore. my life is my life right now and i have little regrets. and speaking of regrets, tell your mother, satan satan satan!

seriously though, i’ve given up on the dreams i once had when i had spit and vigor. i don’t think like my 19 year old self when i wanted to be famous. wanted to be self reliant. fuck the man! i’d like to think i didn’t amount to much because of my dad, or mom, or friends, or whatevs…

you see, that’s the thing though. it’s never really the dad, or mom, or friends… 9 times out of 10, it’s you. you’re the reason you either do the thing or do nothing. i don’t regret many things, but i do have regrets. so if i’m being honest, i know there’s still time. fuck the man! but i also know my mouth is dry and i’m lethargic. that’s what i get for being old and unmotivated.

please, if you can avoid it, don’t ever wonder, what if…