i think it’s hilarious that i believe i’ll be maintain this journal on a regular basis. here’s hoping!

last year i made one entry about that year’s resolutions. i did manage to end the year with a 5.4 index, but i really didn’t practice much.

yeah, i could use a couple of drinks right now… it’s only 1:30 in the afternoon, why not?

i titled this LFG because a lot has happened in the last 6 months. i separated from carolyn last year and i’m officially divorced as of today. i feel nothing about it. not relieved. not happy. not sad. i guess maybe… done? i don’t know. i’m glad it ended because we really weren’t compatible at all. it’s taken too many years for the marriage to end, but sometimes it takes time to go through all the motions and process the feelings before finally giving in to them. i know the future will be better because of the new relationship in my life.

shannon…

wow, this girl. we met a couple years ago and just knew it was going to be a special friendship. she checked a lot of the boxes that i love in a human.

BUT there was definitely an attraction. one that was strong. we were in marriages. so the impulse to act on our feelings were tempered by the relationships that we were in, both of which were horrible. i’m pretty sure i expressed my side over the years in this blog. it’s a moot point now since the divorce is final, but i digress…